Has it really been a year already?

I really don't want to have a birthday this year. I'll be 46, which is crappy enough on its own, and it's been the worst year of my entire life. I just want it to be over. And I'm kinda torn, because it's my birthday, and I really wish that it could be special, but I also just want it gone. It's a conundrum. And not in a good way. I wish I could just go to sleep and wake up and have it be 2010 already. And maybe make this year just a terrible dream. Where the hell is a reset button when you need one?

kd